About that Baggage…

Physical baggage and emotional baggage, there’s room for it all on this exceptionally long car ride…

While I do love a good road trip, our current 21+ hr drive to Chicago is definitely testing that love. However, one upside to traveling by car is unlimited baggage! I have a bag full of shoes, and another bag full of toiletries (all the liquids sans ziplock bags!!), and this is all in addition to a purse, backpack, and my actual bag full of clothes (yes, when it comes to packing, I have a serious issues).

We’ve finally arrived for Thanksgiving and this is only half my ‘baggage’

Anywho…In addition to all of my physical baggage, I am bringing along plenty of emotional baggage too, 32 years worth of that shit. Despite my constant protests that I am totally ‘fine’ and well-adjusted despite years of squashing down any and all emotions, I’ll admit – deep down, the idea of seeing my family makes me feel a little queasy.

It could be that my sister still lives with my mom and doesn’t pay for a damn thing while I’ve been paying my own way since I was 21 (#firstworldproblems I know 🙄). It could also be that my mom is a pathological liar (which usually make me look bad,) my dad closely resembles Donald Trump (which is becoming more evident everyday), or that the person I like the most is my step-mom (who my dad had an affair with for the majority of my childhood). 🤷🏼‍♀️

Yeah there’s a lot there. And despite all of my effort at developing myself and my relationships, my family seems to fall into the ‘does not apply,’ category.

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Funnily enough (or maybe not funny at all?) after writing this bit 👆🏼I switched with my husband and started driving (we were 12 hours into a 21 hour road trip). It was about 4am and I turned on my Wayne Dyer audio book and it tuned right to an entire chapter dedicated to the power of getting along with your family! 😂 You guys, I cant even make this shit up. The Universe is actually always conspiring to help you and it ALWAYS has your back.

I wish I could adequately represent what I learned early this morning but I’m exhausted and what I can tell you is that I approached EVERY situation with love. Every opinion about 45, every complaint about their life, etc., everything I heard was filtered through a sense of compassion. And it ACTUALLY WORKED. After an entire afternoon with my most challenging family members I don’t want to kill myself 😮 We still have 9 more days together, so I’ll keep youupdated!

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